Heat

Yesterday rain poured from the sky like the dam of heaven had burst and was threatening to flood the plains. They must have gotten it under control though, as I assume they have access to an abundance of superman, MacGyver and Nightrider up there. Today there is no rain. Today the sun is beating down on bleached wood, and the sun loving insects and animals that bask in the desert are looking for a place to hide. I think the pants may have been a mistake.

My love is home from work today, feeling very sick and asleep in bed. I think stress is doing this to him. He got hit by the 'flu, yes the real 'flu not just a cold, the dizziness and nausea and exhaustion tipped me off, and he was off work for 2 weeks. Yesterday he woke up with a migraine and today he is still feeling sick. He is working too hard at work, long hours, and on top of that he is trying to complete his thesis also. I think its stress, but that doesn't stop him feeling sick now does it?

I miss my cat. She came along when I most needed a friend; she loved me and only me, and taught me about self worth. She let me cry, pour out my anger and neuroses to her and did not judge, or tell me that I was wrong or stupid. She let me grow, was an unchanging and immutable thing that let me always have something to come home to. And now that I am grown, she has left me. And I am hurting. You would have thought she could have come up with some slightly more tactful way of saying that I was old enough and ugly enough to look after myself. But I suppose if she had then I wouldn't have believed her. God I miss her so much, it is a raw wound that I can't seem to leave alone long enough to heal. She lived with my mum, its not like I was going to see her when I got up in the morning, but the thought of going there and not seeing her, of her just not being there, is something I can not comprehend.